Anonymous asked: I've been so afraid to send this but I have to ask. I was sexually, physically, verbally, mentally, and emotionally abused by my father from ages six to eighteen. My mom ran off when I was eight and that's when he escalated from molestation to raping me. I served as his wife, whore, slave, punching bag, party favor, and much more for the next ten years. For a long time after, I didn't ever wanna be touched. Now, in my twenties, I just wanna get hurt and fucked. What the fuck is wrong with me?
From what you’ve said in this message, there is absolutely nothing wrong with you. There is literally nothing in this message that would lead Me to think anything like that.
What happened to you was wrong, and more than that is a perfect description of a weak, pathetic male. A child of that age is not equipped to make choices about what they want. Therefore, those choices should not be made for them. People who abuse those who can’t defend themselves are utterly pathetic. I am genuinely sorry for what happened to you.
With all that said, however, you should not in any way feel bad for wanting what you do. As I have said before, the crux of any relationship is people making choices for themselves. When I dominate someone, it is because she has chosen to surrender her power to Me. An adult woman, capable of deciding for herself how she wants to live, has given up something to Me because it’s what she needs and wants to do.
And now you’re an adult as well. You can want whatever you want. You can subject yourself to the roughest, cruelest, most degrading fucking imaginable and it won’t mean anything is wrong with you. And it sure as hell won’t validate what was done to you. It’s nothing more or less than a consenting adult looking for what will give her pleasure and fulfillment. And believe Me, if you look in those kinds of places, you won’t be alone.
Does that help?